this is why I cant win at poker, all these hands from within one hour of playing on ftp
http://www.pokerhand.org/?4297993P
http://www.pokerhand.org/?4298003P
http://www.pokerhand.org/?4298006P
http://www.pokerhand.org/?4298007P
http://www.pokerhand.org/?4298009P
http://www.pokerhand.org/?4298012P
I also missed 3 variations of big draws like pairs + a flush draw, or open ended straight flush draws for conisderable sized pots. I just cannot for my fucking life, get anything good going in poker what so ever. It's fucking demoralizing, its killing me, and its breaking me down.
I just got back from a week long great vacation, felt damm good coming in tonight, and started off doing well, going up 2 buyins. I took the first 3 beats well and even congratulated the donks saying "nh's" etc... but then the bs got poured on ,like it inevitibly always does, and I just had to quit before I lost it and started tearing shit apart.
granted I only lost a buyin tonight, but for fucks sake, i should be winning all that fucking money, and not be down 10 buyins this month.
idk what to do, im plugging away at hands like everybody recommends. I'm just trying to break through this shit hole variance run but with no success. ive logged the most hands in a month ever, 17k and i still took over 10 days off cuz of family things.
funny how this fucking game works out aint it
hope my luck changes, i hate being this giant ball of negativity. peace
ps, fwiw id have been down a shit load more if not for this great fucking read/call
http://www.pokerhand.org/?4298029P
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Friday, May 22, 2009
getting back to basics
Gonna try to keep this one short and simple. I've obv gone through a rough patch of variance these last few days and lost a bit of money, but my last 2 sessions have been profitable ones and I believe I am on the right track back to winning.
I noticed that I was trying too much to play a style that I was not accustomed to or even fit with how I play personally. I was watching alot of cardrunners videos and trying to completely reshape how I have taught myself how to win over the last 5 years. While that TAG style may work for the pros and made them thousands, it just doesn't work for me.
When I try to play aggressive I dont know how to respond to players playing aggressive back at me which seems to happen a very lot at 50nl. So I'm often left with very tough decisions and I dont know where I stand because these players change their style so much. What works for me is playing passive and playing like a calling station. keeping other players honest, keeping the pot small, and not taking myself out of hands when i get reraised right out of pots.
idk, It just seems to work for me. so why try to change it. Gotta do what works for me, even if it means playing an unconvential style of poker.
ALOHA
I noticed that I was trying too much to play a style that I was not accustomed to or even fit with how I play personally. I was watching alot of cardrunners videos and trying to completely reshape how I have taught myself how to win over the last 5 years. While that TAG style may work for the pros and made them thousands, it just doesn't work for me.
When I try to play aggressive I dont know how to respond to players playing aggressive back at me which seems to happen a very lot at 50nl. So I'm often left with very tough decisions and I dont know where I stand because these players change their style so much. What works for me is playing passive and playing like a calling station. keeping other players honest, keeping the pot small, and not taking myself out of hands when i get reraised right out of pots.
idk, It just seems to work for me. so why try to change it. Gotta do what works for me, even if it means playing an unconvential style of poker.
ALOHA
Monday, May 18, 2009
getting down
Poker has been horrible since I had that one good day. Im going on my 13th session since that day with only one winning session... and that was to dig me out of a $200 hole I had made earlier.
Things are just getting and I quote "fucking ridicilous". I'm in the twilight zone again where it is impossible to win anything in poker. I am pretty much over this whole bs scene, and this month is making it seem more like a reality that I will be completely broke within 2 to 3 months.
idk, maybe I should just call it a good game and take what I have left. Use it for something responsible instead of blowing it all on a stupid game.
I still have hope I can turn this around, but i'd say the odds aren't in my favor.
Things are just getting and I quote "fucking ridicilous". I'm in the twilight zone again where it is impossible to win anything in poker. I am pretty much over this whole bs scene, and this month is making it seem more like a reality that I will be completely broke within 2 to 3 months.
idk, maybe I should just call it a good game and take what I have left. Use it for something responsible instead of blowing it all on a stupid game.
I still have hope I can turn this around, but i'd say the odds aren't in my favor.
Sunday, May 17, 2009
fucking ridicilous
im getting fucking worked these last 2 days. I tried to not post anything negative and to keep my blog upbeat and positive, but this is getting fucking retarded.
trying to move up too 100nl, and i get fucking worked. I'm down $300+ today from fucking 100nl alone, and thats just playing 2 fucking tables of that bs. luckily I was playing 50nl too and won some tiny bs there to offset some losses, but im still a fucking loser today.
AA vs 55 I flat a pf r/r in position, 667 flop he bets I call, turn 5 he checks i bet he shoves i call obviously 55.
KK I bet everystreet in a HU pot 44x x K board, obviously he has 44.
new guy at table has played 6 hands and raised everysingle one of them. i flat in pos with KQ, AKQ flop. he bets I call, turn 8, He bets I shove, obv he has JT.
FUCK THIS FUCKING BULLSHIT, I CANT FUCKING STAND THIS GAME SOMETIMES.
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trying to move up too 100nl, and i get fucking worked. I'm down $300+ today from fucking 100nl alone, and thats just playing 2 fucking tables of that bs. luckily I was playing 50nl too and won some tiny bs there to offset some losses, but im still a fucking loser today.
AA vs 55 I flat a pf r/r in position, 667 flop he bets I call, turn 5 he checks i bet he shoves i call obviously 55.
KK I bet everystreet in a HU pot 44x x K board, obviously he has 44.
new guy at table has played 6 hands and raised everysingle one of them. i flat in pos with KQ, AKQ flop. he bets I call, turn 8, He bets I shove, obv he has JT.
FUCK THIS FUCKING BULLSHIT, I CANT FUCKING STAND THIS GAME SOMETIMES.
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Friday, May 15, 2009
Back Baby!
Had a sick session today. Won $330 at 50nl and a little bit of 100nl. Everything that I preached to myself in my last blog worked to perfection (well at least as perfect as you can get in poker).
But I can't let up here, gotta keep on pushing, learning, and destroying.
BigChipsHI = HUNGRY!
ALOHA
But I can't let up here, gotta keep on pushing, learning, and destroying.
BigChipsHI = HUNGRY!
ALOHA
Finding my game again
Poker was pretty much blah today. After losing $80 something yesterday and feeling terrible about how badly I played, I took the initiative to watch two cardrunners videos to help me find my game again.
I started off really bad in my first session. Dumping money in pots I know I shouldn't be, just being frustrated and giving in to my emotions. But somehow I manged to hit a few hands and break even for that session.
Then later that night I watched my second card runners video and was inspired by one of muddywaters videos to play my best poker game I could. The guy is a beast, he's entertaining to watch and learn from, and he plays by feel just like me. So I will def be watching alot more of his vids while I try to better my nlhe game. But anyway, I forget but I took some silly stupid beats and dropped 2 buyins quickly. I was getting down on myself and starting to hate poker. But thanks to JC he kept me in check and told me to keepy head up. It worked, I kept plugging away playing some grade A poker, I was able to recover the losses and actually end up winning $10 bucks on the day.
But what I really want to do is make notes of everything that I did towards the end of my second session where I thought I played some of the greatest poker I've played in a while. It wasn't that I was playing really tight or overly loose, I was playing smart. Playing my position to benefit me as much as it could. Not floating around with all the garbage crap I usually do oop. I was really tight from ep, ext tight from the sb, and played perfect tight aggressive poker in mp/lp. Going for value, watching my c-bets, some good 3bs in the mix, and lot of excellent reads and folds.
I was extra atentive to stack sizes And how their decision making would reflect their potential holdings. I tagged all the shortstacks on everytable so I would warn myself and take the right precautions playing the shorties. I c-bet and bluffed when their stack sizes allowed me to bluff them perfectly where they would either have to commit themselves or fold and I'd be left with an easy decision. Of course this works best when your playing in position, so keep that in mind.
Keep your mind open to learn new strategies in poker everyday. Vary your bet sizes even if it means overbetting pots sometimes, you got to keep fools guessing and it works like a charm. Same thing goes with tiny min bets and raises. Alright, think that covers it.
Aloha
I started off really bad in my first session. Dumping money in pots I know I shouldn't be, just being frustrated and giving in to my emotions. But somehow I manged to hit a few hands and break even for that session.
Then later that night I watched my second card runners video and was inspired by one of muddywaters videos to play my best poker game I could. The guy is a beast, he's entertaining to watch and learn from, and he plays by feel just like me. So I will def be watching alot more of his vids while I try to better my nlhe game. But anyway, I forget but I took some silly stupid beats and dropped 2 buyins quickly. I was getting down on myself and starting to hate poker. But thanks to JC he kept me in check and told me to keepy head up. It worked, I kept plugging away playing some grade A poker, I was able to recover the losses and actually end up winning $10 bucks on the day.
But what I really want to do is make notes of everything that I did towards the end of my second session where I thought I played some of the greatest poker I've played in a while. It wasn't that I was playing really tight or overly loose, I was playing smart. Playing my position to benefit me as much as it could. Not floating around with all the garbage crap I usually do oop. I was really tight from ep, ext tight from the sb, and played perfect tight aggressive poker in mp/lp. Going for value, watching my c-bets, some good 3bs in the mix, and lot of excellent reads and folds.
I was extra atentive to stack sizes And how their decision making would reflect their potential holdings. I tagged all the shortstacks on everytable so I would warn myself and take the right precautions playing the shorties. I c-bet and bluffed when their stack sizes allowed me to bluff them perfectly where they would either have to commit themselves or fold and I'd be left with an easy decision. Of course this works best when your playing in position, so keep that in mind.
Keep your mind open to learn new strategies in poker everyday. Vary your bet sizes even if it means overbetting pots sometimes, you got to keep fools guessing and it works like a charm. Same thing goes with tiny min bets and raises. Alright, think that covers it.
Aloha
Thursday, May 14, 2009
2 years later cont'd
Alright, I'm back in San Fran now and just finished up a session of 50nlhe full ring. not a bad session but not a great one either, finished +$10 after 1.1k hands. But I did start out getting raped and managed to get myself back to even. Guess its a good thing im getting rakeback and earning iron man status/points or id feel like id be doing all this for nothing.
So I left off my last entry after winning my Main Event seat and took the cash. But I did end up using that money to fly out to Billoxi, Mississippi for a small series of poker tournaments there and to meet up with my online buddy ForRealDD. Billoxi is sickkkk! It's a mini Bellagio, the people are great, the staff really knows how to treat the players, Hotel is bomb diggity, and its cheap if your playing in the poker tournaments. But outside of the hotel and the Hard Rock Casino next door, their aint shit else to do. But when theres a Casino downstairs complete with blackjack, craps, and roulette... what more do you need ;)
So we played the first 3 days of tournaments and I busted all the majors about just more than halfway through the field when I got bad beated etc etc etc. I told a rather large lady in a wheel chair that she was a f*in joke, w/e. Hmmm what else? I won like 3 satellite entries to the daily events so I basically broke even. And then, of course Hurricane Gustav comes and runs us out of Town. So gay. Me and DD had to stay up all night trying to find a rental car company to rent us a car so we could get the F out of the way of the hurricane. We finally got one and drove 10 frikin hours to Dallas, Tx where I spent the night at a holiday inn and caught a flight back to SF the next day.
After that, idk what happened to me mentally but I guess I subconsciously decided to take the rest of the year off. I still played mtts all the time, but I never could get into a rythm or groove and get a good cash to save my life. I guess I was kinda just going through the motions and not really caring all that much about what happened. I got too comftorable with having my biggest bankroll ever, and thought it would never go away. That I would always get a score that would replenish whatever I spent.
So like any other 23 year old with money, I went and bought me a but load of toys. LCD HDTV, ps3, new desk, new monitor, new chair, new entertainment center, and a drum set. I went nuts. But I don't regret any bit of it. I enjoy all of those things and get tons of good use out of them.
Fast Forward to today, and my BR is hurting so to speak. I still got enough to try and grind it back up comftorably, but I definately waited to long to get this ball rolling again. And After 2-3 straight years of grinding nothing but mtt's and some sng's (never touching cash games), I finally realized that I was burnt out on tournaments.
So I found cash games again. Well NLHE anyway. And so far after 3 months of grinding really hard, studying up, and trying to transform myself into a nlhe player again, I'm having a bit of success. ATM I am at 35,000 hands and having a win rate of 7.5bb/100. not bad, but I expect that to get better the more I study and the more experience I get in nlhe.
so thats it for now, Me and JC be updating our blogs errry day now so check it out.
ALOHA
So I left off my last entry after winning my Main Event seat and took the cash. But I did end up using that money to fly out to Billoxi, Mississippi for a small series of poker tournaments there and to meet up with my online buddy ForRealDD. Billoxi is sickkkk! It's a mini Bellagio, the people are great, the staff really knows how to treat the players, Hotel is bomb diggity, and its cheap if your playing in the poker tournaments. But outside of the hotel and the Hard Rock Casino next door, their aint shit else to do. But when theres a Casino downstairs complete with blackjack, craps, and roulette... what more do you need ;)
So we played the first 3 days of tournaments and I busted all the majors about just more than halfway through the field when I got bad beated etc etc etc. I told a rather large lady in a wheel chair that she was a f*in joke, w/e. Hmmm what else? I won like 3 satellite entries to the daily events so I basically broke even. And then, of course Hurricane Gustav comes and runs us out of Town. So gay. Me and DD had to stay up all night trying to find a rental car company to rent us a car so we could get the F out of the way of the hurricane. We finally got one and drove 10 frikin hours to Dallas, Tx where I spent the night at a holiday inn and caught a flight back to SF the next day.
After that, idk what happened to me mentally but I guess I subconsciously decided to take the rest of the year off. I still played mtts all the time, but I never could get into a rythm or groove and get a good cash to save my life. I guess I was kinda just going through the motions and not really caring all that much about what happened. I got too comftorable with having my biggest bankroll ever, and thought it would never go away. That I would always get a score that would replenish whatever I spent.
So like any other 23 year old with money, I went and bought me a but load of toys. LCD HDTV, ps3, new desk, new monitor, new chair, new entertainment center, and a drum set. I went nuts. But I don't regret any bit of it. I enjoy all of those things and get tons of good use out of them.
Fast Forward to today, and my BR is hurting so to speak. I still got enough to try and grind it back up comftorably, but I definately waited to long to get this ball rolling again. And After 2-3 straight years of grinding nothing but mtt's and some sng's (never touching cash games), I finally realized that I was burnt out on tournaments.
So I found cash games again. Well NLHE anyway. And so far after 3 months of grinding really hard, studying up, and trying to transform myself into a nlhe player again, I'm having a bit of success. ATM I am at 35,000 hands and having a win rate of 7.5bb/100. not bad, but I expect that to get better the more I study and the more experience I get in nlhe.
so thats it for now, Me and JC be updating our blogs errry day now so check it out.
ALOHA
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
2 years later...
and guess what? I'm still here son!
Yezzir. It's been one hell of a ride since the beginning/end of the blog that I have since forgotten about. Got a lot to talk about. A lot of updates. Some good, some bad, some fun times, and other times id rather just forget about. But thus is the life of an aspiring professional poker player, you never know what the future has in store for you or how things will pan out. You can try to plan and hope for the best... but the poker gods have something totally different in mind. Good or bad? I guess I'll have to wait and see.
So I guess I'll start where I left off. Looks like my last post was May 17,2007. While I cant recall exactly all the events that have taken place in my poker career since then, I can at least give you an idea of what happened. I closed out the rest of 2007 making about 15-20k net profit for the year. But I did really good in closing out mtt's, winning at least 2-3 mtts outright.
2008 was my best year of my poker life. I made around 40k, but did not win any notable mtt's outright. I think I got like 4 or 5 second place finishes, and a lot of 4th-9th place finishes. I don't know what it was, but I couldn't catch a dang break when it came to the final table. Everytime I got it headsup, id take a retarded beat to some spewy monkey and end up leaving a ton of money for the 1st place finisher. Otherwise, Im up at least 55k in 2008.
But 2008 wasn't bad at all, because I did win a $12,500 satellite to the WSOP main event. One sunday I decided to give some supersatellites a shot and try to win a $650 ticket to the stars sunday qualifier. Needless to say I won my first $150 satellite and was able to play the qualifier, and later also won my 12.5k seat to the Main Event (which I did take the cash for).
Ill close up this blog here, becuase it's 2:30am in Hawaii and I have to catch a 1pm flight back to San Francisco.
later ill talk about my trip to Mississippi, getting burnt out from mtt poker, and my new projects of nlhe cash games.
Aloha
Yezzir. It's been one hell of a ride since the beginning/end of the blog that I have since forgotten about. Got a lot to talk about. A lot of updates. Some good, some bad, some fun times, and other times id rather just forget about. But thus is the life of an aspiring professional poker player, you never know what the future has in store for you or how things will pan out. You can try to plan and hope for the best... but the poker gods have something totally different in mind. Good or bad? I guess I'll have to wait and see.
So I guess I'll start where I left off. Looks like my last post was May 17,2007. While I cant recall exactly all the events that have taken place in my poker career since then, I can at least give you an idea of what happened. I closed out the rest of 2007 making about 15-20k net profit for the year. But I did really good in closing out mtt's, winning at least 2-3 mtts outright.
2008 was my best year of my poker life. I made around 40k, but did not win any notable mtt's outright. I think I got like 4 or 5 second place finishes, and a lot of 4th-9th place finishes. I don't know what it was, but I couldn't catch a dang break when it came to the final table. Everytime I got it headsup, id take a retarded beat to some spewy monkey and end up leaving a ton of money for the 1st place finisher. Otherwise, Im up at least 55k in 2008.
But 2008 wasn't bad at all, because I did win a $12,500 satellite to the WSOP main event. One sunday I decided to give some supersatellites a shot and try to win a $650 ticket to the stars sunday qualifier. Needless to say I won my first $150 satellite and was able to play the qualifier, and later also won my 12.5k seat to the Main Event (which I did take the cash for).
Ill close up this blog here, becuase it's 2:30am in Hawaii and I have to catch a 1pm flight back to San Francisco.
later ill talk about my trip to Mississippi, getting burnt out from mtt poker, and my new projects of nlhe cash games.
Aloha
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